eat that, perception

Self-perception is everything. The way I view myself is not the way you would view me. It's not the way God, my daughter, husband, family, and friends view me. I see fat, I see unlovable, I see embarrassment. This is the hub of my struggle with weight. I eat because it's easier to feel this way, to wallow in the self-pity, to never change. I am lazy because I allow depression to rule my every movement. I'm over it. I don't want to be unhappy. I want to be comfortable in my own skin. I want to be confident. I want to be beautiful in my eyes too. I have laid out my diet and exercise plans, now it's time for the make-it or break-it part of the pyramid. I can't accomplish anything without changing my thought process. This part of the plan could get a little touchy for some of you, but hey, it's my blog. I plan to start finding myself in Christ. The way he views me. The way he loves me. I plan to make it part of my diet plan. I have decided to begin reading a book called "So long, Insecurity" by Beth Moore. Also I plan to include a daily quiet time and devotional. I want to learn to find my security, my value, and my strength in my Savior. I know that following the three plans I have set out for myself (on the menu, the run-up and the run-down, and eat that, perception) that I can change my life in a great deal of ways. I don't feel that I can do any of them separately and succeed. They are all dependent upon each other. I am ready for this journey, let me know if you want to join me!

the run-up and the run-down

I don't exercise. This is another part of my life that needs to change. I personally become a different person when I exercise on a regular basis. Partially because I have more confidence because of the weight loss results I see, partially because of the simple fact that exercise releases endorphins that simply make you a nicer and happier person, and partially because we are not meant to be sedentary in nature. Our bodies need exercise. I plan to begin by choosing a more rigorous exercise plan titled "slim in six". Once again, I have used this plan and know that it works for me because of the past goals I have accomplished...and slowly destroyed over time. I believe that I have failed to mention that I am the mother of a beautiful 1 year old girl, who I delivered as a C-section, and have since been using as an excuse not to work-out. The day has come when I have to sacrifice my laziness for the sake of my well-being.